it's been awhile, since I wrote a journal, hasn't it? Well, anyway, it's only 5pm here, and I got nothing to do, so why not summarize everything that's happened to me in the last two months?

First thing: I don't know if you guys remember me saying this, but I've started going to tech school at the start of September. After nine weeks of exploratory classes, I've finally decided the path I'm going to take for the next three years, and this frightened/startled, without exception, everyone that I know in the real world.

I have decided to...become...

FABULOUS!!!!

This just goes to show the true, chaotic nature of myself. Normally, I would have taken the first class I was in, Design and Visual Communications (basically making ads and logos), but for some reason, Fashion just pulled me in. I feel very comfortable there, and I can openly express my ideas without ridicule. My teacher even said that I have a talent for making and understanding patterns (basically tissue stencils of the clothing parts) before I even cut the pattern out. Right now I'm working on a Gandolf(LotR) wizard's robe (I had originally wanted to make a white trench coat/duster, but we didn't have that pattern), but it's on hold until I get back to school.

Speaking of school, I'm about to go insane because of it. The one thing that kept me somewhat normal when I started to get pissed was my MP3 (nicknamed "Salvation"). However, on Monday, between the time that the dismissal bell rung and when I got on the bus, my MP3 went missing, probably falling onto the floor. My entire class helped me look for it the day after, but it's gone. Somebody's probably gone and kept it for themselves. Now I don't have my music...

...which makes drawing new things even harder for me. I've gotten to the point where I can't even think on how to improve on a concept, let alone completely draw something in one sitting. I'm practically forcing myself to just think that I can make something. I think that I've finally lost my ability to draw, or at least focus. I know that there's an infinite amount of possibilities, but I just keep drawing blanks. My paper remains as blank as...

...the three freaking feet of snow that we got here! Seriously, Western Mass (or at least my town) has broken the record of snow accumulation for the month of December in one weekend. I want to just move somewhere warmer...

well, anyway, that's my rant... bai bai.